Beethovens Therapeut

… ist nicht unbekannt. Es gab keinen. Und dabei hätte der angebliche “Rebel” (NY Times, heute) dringend einen gebraucht. Dann hätte er vielleicht auch nicht so sehr eines Arztes bedurft.

Mit einem Wort: das Wunder Beethovens und seiner WUT (Leberzirrhose!) ist wohl nur das Ergebnis mentalen Leides eine sehr unglücklichen Kindheit. Macht die Kinder glücklich, dann brauchen wir nicht Musik wie die von Beethoven zu hören. Logisch. Leider wahr. Symptomatisch für die europäische Kultur und Kunst insgesamt.

Changing habits

To words that seem to have little to say, as banal s they seem. It occurs to me to understand that on one hand it works not be exaggerated to say that we are habits, we are layered habits, multitude of habits, seamlessly glued together to what we believe to be our free will. And, secondly, to change such habits, is a daunting, difficult task. So these two words: changing habits, encompass our whole existential drama, nearly as in the famous phrase: to be or not to be.

Self Discipline?

Self Discipline, time Management? Great! But what if you have a family? What does it take to cut out the time for you and you alone?

They need you, you need them. Working alone means alone, no-one interfering.

It’s a discipline inside the discipline, to stay easy and smooth: your habit becomes their habit. And in exchange, at times their habit become yours.

You have to learn to switch off reacting to every and each single input, question, comment. As if you were not there: focus on your task. If they don’t believe it, make it clear. Shut off, it’s the only possible pathway to work alone.


Arriving on the bar of the re-re-vived Café Drechsler, one gets the feeling that the four girls behind the bar are having a good time, but working for themselves. Feeling completely ignored as a customer for a time span of minutes which seem an eternity, I start talking on my mind about what is going on.

I hate these situations, but they occur. Finally I employ a slightly raised volume, still in friendly words to order an espresso.

It works, and at a sudden all four are taking notice of my presence. Funny because I give a shit about their show -off coolness displayed. This is just yet another ordinary neo Café and no fancy Ibiza bar.

The word responsibility comes to my mind. Those girls are in their mid- twenties, and floating on a world view of hyper individualism, which comes with a proportional loss of caring and responsibility for others outside of their prefabricated perception.

Yes it is generational, yes it is also a question of age, and yes it’s a question of not knowing, a lack of true culture: Italian barista culture.

I have to ask the girl to wipe off the café she spilled when hitting the cups in front of me on the counter, jerking into my direction. no words of sorry or excuse, just a stupid face.

Responsibility hurts the individualist’s world view. This is true apokalypse: starting in the ego bubble.

More qi

Great to have things in this world nobody knows to explain. Recently I was posting the question in knowledge forums about what happens I’d travel to a far distant star at light speed and would catch up with local time at that star. Most people actually didn’t get the question, and the others came up with unconvincing theories. My own and only answer is it that this case will never occur in my life. It’s irrelevant to have an answer. Fullstop.

The question about “what is qi?” sounds similar to the other question above. The answer however is relevant to me, and let me muse about my idea.

Qi, at least is not ONE thingy. The magic of it I compare to something like the following. If I ‘d say, “what does your symphony sound like?”, you might start to explain something about other people’s symphonies, like Beethoven’s fifth, but your own, future symphony is rather an idea in the making. And this is exactly my approach: the qi is your personal qi, an idea in the making by you. Do it yourself!

communication and silence in partnership

We all agree that communication is crucial. Especially in relationships. Silence between partners at most times is regarded as negative: something is wrong, when nobody reaches out to the other. Communication fails come early of dramatic fails of partnership.

Why is silence on one side regarded as negative and as a high rhetoric skill to steer conversation on another?

How much communication is necessary, and when does it become tiresome to the other? Redundancy or repetitiveness is tiring, and many a relation even breaks on those repetitions of dumb nonsense.

Silence is verbal silence, semantic silence, and we should know that there is more than semantics. Even more crucial than a politically correct conversation is the truth behind the words. Words are used to lie. It’s harder and more unlikely to lie without words.

Obviously silence can be a denial of communication, but maybe a denial of carrying on repetitive bullshit or lies. Denial of semantics IS also communication without words, but honest. It’s a truth that is hard to accept, though nevertheless a truth.

Communication without words, in silence, requests special skills to be conducted. Receive and decode and understand and respond to a wordless message demands active emphatic thinking, thinking without words.

The advantage is to have more options to understand deeper layers of our being, without being nailed down to words, maybe improperly or hastily chosen.

To communicate in silence is a result of a long partnership and requests not only life experience but a special way of “listening” into the other person and the whole situation. It’s a holistic way of communicating, in other words.

A German Computer Keyboard

It has been a long time I was working this keyboard layout. Now this is what it looks like.

Maybe I find some time to describe the features and reasoning soon. There are many layouts out there, but only one of visibility for the German language, the “neo” layout. The strange result of my experience is that every gain in accessibility has its price. If you have better positions for some letter combinations, others become more akward. However, it is hard to judge, when one is so much used to the normal layouts QWERTZ/QWERTY.